; i CANT escape you.

There's nothing left to say except...

I MISS YOU ♥

I am not who you think I am,say hello to Mrs.Curiosity.

Hello dear blog , we meet once again.

So much goes on in one day of my life.
Too bad Im not able to make this a daily thing ;[ I need a job and I need to buy me a laptop to be able to share my thoughts and express them as needed.

So here I am,sitting in front of the computer,eating ice cream. Having so much to say,not knowing where to start. Listening to John Mayer to ease my mind.

*sigh,well since the last time I wrote here,
I've lost a few friends.
Told someone I loved them and totally got heart broken.
Got closer to other friends.
New class schedule.
& finally, Im somewhat closer to my family members <3

School has started once again,and Im trying to get my life together.
Im desperate to get a job,only so I can become more responsible. If I have school & a job my schedule will pretty much be tight & I can concentrate on the important things and not get involved in all the drama that Im involved with on a daily basis.

Also,Winter is ALMOST coming to end ♥
Spring is coming then finally SUMMER .
Im excited,Im trying to lose weight. So jogging will become and everyday thing for me starting next week. This summer will be one of the best , I have a feeling.

My family & I have become closer in a way,Im sorta happy about. I can talk to them about things and NOT feel like an outcast.

Boys,well as john mayer would say Im dreaming with a broken heart

I almost forgot!
My nikon D5000 has been so much help,i have taken interest in photography & that helps me in a way that no one can understand.



"Love is blinding when the timing's never right
Oh who am I to beg for difference
Finding love in just an instant
Well I dont mind, at least I've tried"

Till next time ♥

I shouldve never thought of you.

So,in my previous blog I wrote about some "nice" guy.

Scratch that.
This blog will revolve around boys and their stupidity.

Seems to me that im to nice to these boys. They take advantage of it and come and go as they please,and me being the idiot I let them. I mean I have told myself plenty times I wouldnt let them,but hey Im only human. Its hard for me to do that , when you clearly have feelings for the person and cant help to me the nicest thing ever. Then there comes a point,which is the point where I am at. Its the point where the whole little game is getting absolutely boring and its not even worth "fighting" for. Though my heart is saying one thing,for once in my life Im gonna be the bitch that I should have been all along & take actions upon what my MIND is thinking. Its gonna be hard but I have enough confidence in myself to do it.

Dear blog of mine,
you are my witness and everyone who is reading this right now. YOU ALL are my witnesses that I, Itsel Vargas will not be taken as a joke.

Enough is ENOUGH ;

*Dont tell me lies just say goodbye*

Im done for the night;goodnight blog ♥

Don't you stray, from the narrow way.

Hello lovely blog that I have missed dearly ♥

I haven't blogged in a month and 2 days ):
Even though I have had the urge,I just haven't had the time. So,what I have done is write my feelings down on paper.

*sigh,I think its necessary to update my blog on everything that has happened to me In the past month <3 Even though its a bit confusing.

The past month has been HELL for me in school. Im failing 4 classes and its the end of the term. Hopefully this new term will be much better,'cause I really need it to be. Drama is NON stop as always.

Boys are stupid.
There's one boy that has came into my life,and gave me non stop drama. but at the end of the day,i have a feeling that i love him. Its probably all make believe. For the moment im feeling ok with it <3 *sigh. so amazing.


I promise you blog I will write more later <3

Down to earth.

"So its up to to you and its up to me,That we meet in our middle way,On our way back down to earth"

Wow,I haven't blogged for more than a month. I knew something was missing in my life. I really needed to write. I just don't have time anymore. I miss this. I miss blogging. Writing freely where no one can change me. Read and accept it.

Where should I start?

Hmm. School.

so in the past month that I haven't blogged,Ive managed to fail four classes. Im not proud and Im workin' on those grades.

Family,surprisingly the relationship between me and my family has gotten so much better. Im glad,I really am.

Friends. I am at a point where I lack friends. People just cant take the way I am. My best friend has gone M.I.A and I have nowhere to turn to and Im all upset because I need to vent. I want to vent here,but I know friends of mine who actually read this and idk...

ugh,well yesterday was christmas and like every single one of my friends went to the movies. Not together,but still. Im upset because everyone always complains how Im never able to hang out. Thats not the issue,the issue is no one ever tells me whats going on so how the fxck am I supposed to know. I really should STOP relying on friends. Well so called friends.
I will blog more tomorrow. Im extremely tired,and I need to relax.

Dear blog of mine,I will continue to tell you about my life journeys and the complications I go through.

goodnight ♥

Overdose of happyness <3

I'm so happy.

Okay so my birthday is next week November 19th & what I wanted was my nikon & tickets to the z100 jingle ball. The tickets were sold out D; I put myself and convinced myself I would win those tickets on the radio.& tonight I have accomplished just that. I was caller #61, #75 #89 and finally the winnging #100. I'm super excited even though the concert is in december I mean c'mon my FIRST concert I'm going to I won through a radio station. Its unreal & I love it.

Justin Bieber's CD comes out next week which feels me up with joy because I love him and his music makes me happy. My birthday is next week as I mentioned. Next saturday I'm going out w| lost friends which excites me. Long time I don't hang w| them and I'm glad that we're gonna hang out.



Now I will continue listening to z100 eating my animal crackers and drinking my snapple <33

Silence means everything.

Holy Shizballs. I have followers O.o lol. I'm surprised,well thank you all (:

So yeah,anyways... I'm so confoosed right at this point. I've had boy problems before but recently they're jumping off the walls -__-
2 boys like me I don't like neither of them,I like their friend which went out with MY friend. How fxckin' weird is that? *sigh* I'm not gonna say anything just becausee,but seriously,whyy mee? Lol.

I'm gonna go continue watching the Baseball game.

Let's Go Phillies <3 (: