So my last blog was sorta happy. So much can happen in such few days. Blogging keeps me sane so here it goes.
UGH,so I realized that NO ONE & I repeat NO ONE will no how you feel EVER,people think they've gone through the same but no one has and some things can be so similar but not the same. I've also noticed NO ONE gives a shit about how you feel or your opinions. The closest people to you are your family members but they're the first to let you down.
I get so discouraged in my house,it gets really frustrating. I rather hang out with my friends though sometimes I feel like I'm not "cool enough" to hang with them. I'm such a complicated person and idk how people TRY to deal with me or they fake trying to deal with me.
They always tell me the most cliche' things to get me off their backs or at least that's how it seems. My best friend,well my so called best friend has turned his back just like many others. I personally don't care to do anything anymore,because I ALWAYS have to be the one to apologize to say I'm wrong.
Reason why I ALWAYS think I'm wrong,reason why I always put mytself down,because people have led me to that and its not only their fualts its also mine because I let them get to me. Its easy to tell me to ignore someone but once you're getting put down everyday you start believing what everyone says about you.
Some people tell me that I always seem happy,but there's A LOT you can hide behind a smile. One day I won't be able to take the pain I feel in my heart .
I really need someone who will try to comprehend me and NOT just tell me something to get me off their backs... I mean I appreciate my friends for trying to help but c'mon do they really care for me or themselves. Its such an easy question to answer.
I need someone who will be their for me,just to listen not even to give me advice to just listen and give me a hug when I need it. Silence means everything... Words don't always make things better.
I just need to relax,something-idk.
Goodnight<3
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